I post way more effectively and frequently than my friends do
I’ve been having these thoughts today, I would classify them under regret. I don’t know if I am being crazy, lonely, or a straight up bastard for having them. They revolve around my first ex, and then spiral to all the other really dysfunctional relationships I’ve been a part of.
You see, my first ex has popped in and out of my life and I have done the same to hers. But mostly it seems when the popping is done is dictated by her. I’ve gone through long periods of not seeing her, to having brief moments where we’re friends, to long sudden stretches of her not picking up my calls and eventually me deleting the number from my phone and her eventually way down the line contacting me and the cycle begins again.
I’ve dealt with this as a fact of our interaction, but also I have been lately feeling that it’s because I’m so crazy that these interactions are just that, brief interactions rather than actual periods of friendship.
Now I don’t know if I’m saying I want her to be in my life as a friend, because I don’t know if that could work or not because it never has. But what I am saying is that all of the erratic behavior I’ve attributed to her, maybe it’s all me.
I am overly cold in my interactions and very stoic. I attempt to display no dismay, sadness, or even affectation. I act as if I’m super uninterested and just down right mean. But maybe this is who I am, you know? Maybe I am a downright hoser. But I have been feeling regret lately, maybe I’ve been too much of an asshole.
These thoughts have also brought me to, why am I thinking these thoughts right now? Is it even worth having this thought process part of my existence? Shouldn’t I just be cool, calm, and collected? Maybe it’s because I actually have a biological clock that is ticking nervously right now. Thoughts of who I could I ever actually be with crossed with my very stubborn position on “love.”
I could possibly be not built for a traditional marriage where love is the glue. Maybe creating a stronger and richer family based on caste is my fate. I could have missed my chance at anything already.
Maybe these thoughts are due to me having sex very infrequently. Could be that Otis and Stevie have infiltrated my subconscious so effectively that I’ll never be happy with one woman, I’ll need all women.
Bah.
You guys should be watching “Chuck”
Here’s why you should be watching the show “Chuck” on NBC:
• It stars a dude who is supposed to be awkward and lame who works in a crazy place that is very much like a best buy and staffs crazy characters and individuals that will make you laugh
• There is a nerdy loser sidekick who just wants to be his friend Chucks bestest friend, it leads to hilarious situations especially because Chuck has a hot-ass-sister, which leads me to my next point
• There is a multitude of fine women in this show, who are mostly spies and mostly get into chick fights. Although the chick fights are poorly choreographed and edited, it’s still cool to watch
• The chicks are hot
• The show is funny and is produced by a guy named “McG.” Although the guy is probably a douche, he got a psych degree like me
• Chuck and his cohorts are loveable and nerdy
• John Laraquette has an excellent performance in one episode
Although the naivety of Chuck can be overdone, it’s still a good show. Although the plot twists are incredibly predictable it’s good. It even employs all kinds of pseudo-science. You should watch it in this order, if you can catch it on NBC on Monday nights at 8 PM, support it that way. Some of the episodes are on Hulu, you can watch it there. I don’t know if it’s on DVD but watch it on that if you can. Or find a torrent.
I have used all the above mentioned options, except for the DVD. Obviously you should support the show, I don’t think it’s in danger of being cancelled because it runs an hour long now, but well you know, support it.
I played a lot of video games this weekend
I really didn’t do much this weekend. I drove to the Brentwood Best Buy after work and as I was walking in a woman was talking on her cell phone really loud, about 20 feet away from me. This was significant because she was speaking italian, and she was young…and stylish. I thought to myself, “What the fuck?”
I was quite surprised to hear someone speak something other than English or Spanish in Brentwood. Is it turning into Europe now? Anyways, I was driving without my glasses and walked into Best Buy very disoriented. I couldn’t read the signs and I wandered around until I found the video games…which were in the back. Why the fuck would you put the video games in the back?
So then I bought Fallout 3 and played all weekend. I also ate a lot of vegetables, organ meats, and delicious sodas. Fallout 3 is pretty addictive. I am finding that it is taking over my interest in all things porn. I find myself bored with porn and thinking only about playing Fallout 3. I ate some food at some point, I did clip the roses, but I mostly played Fallout 3. I gotta get back to the game.
Jeremy Scahill is pretty good at debunking things and making you question stuff
Here is a link to the mentioned article if you’re interested…which you should be. Click Here for the link.
Yazdo’s first youtube video…let’s viralize this m’fer
I saw JCVD and none of you have
Hah. I wanted to brag about seeing it. It’s a sad but good movie. It still is a Van Damme movie, but arthouse like. I’ll watch it again anytime. Here is what LA Times said about it, could be some spoilers.
I know I’ve been out of the game for a little while
I had a lot to say after the Obama win, but I wanted to let people enjoy themselves. And then I said I don’t give a fuck. Whatever. People can have really high hopes, that’s up to them. Then I was going to write about Bishop Allen and how cool the show was and how I should be going to more shows more often. Then I lost interest in that.
It’s twitter man, twitter is like the act of being neutered but for blog writers. I mean why write blogs when you can twit? F that. I’m sorry. So here’s something I thought was hilarious from achewood, which is a really weird and sometimes funny comic.
